so sometimes I come across too weird, or too strong as some would put it. I come across to strange, or too much if you would. But the most part and the biggest part is that I come as a turn off. I am un-attractive in every way. I am not that skinny,I don't have the prettiest face, and I am as plain as could be. I cant seem to get any guy to notice me, they always like to be "friends" and then that is as far as the relationship will go. I once got told that the reason that guys don't go for me is because I come across unambitious, but I believe that to be total bull. I am one of the most ambitious persons that I know. I always go for what I want to achieve and almost every time I achieve. I want to know what to do and how to do it... So when someone calls me unambitious, it just makes no sense at all.
Why is it that I am so lame and so ugly... I use to have a high confidence in High School, bit going to college and seeing everyone around getting boyfriends or getting noticed, it just makes me self esteem drop to the lowest degree. I know that I am who I am and no one can tell me other wise, but I want to be noticed for who I am and not for someone that I am not. yes I do have a lot of guy friends, but the always come to me for advice and help, never for a date or for something to do. they always go for my roommate or for a good "pick me up".
I am becoming my own worse enemy and I hate it...
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